K/S Hospital Scene bc Into Darkness was so K/S TASTIC

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It was so sudden. He woke up with a flash, bright lights, soft sounds, a bed, he was alive?? But he'd died in the chamber...in engineering. Spock and he had exchanged that vulcan hand-thing whatever the hell it was. He'd died, he was dead. Was this heaven? Holy....

No. Bones was here nagging at him.

"Oh don't be so melodramatic, you were barely dead. You've been out cold for two weeks."

He was so...taken aback. What had happened? He just remembered being in the locked chamber watching Spock shed tears, glimmering tears of anguish as he slowly died of radiation poisoning... his heart lurched at the memory. He didn't know the vulcan was even capable...

And then Spock was in the room, approaching him. Suddenly... everything else was forgotten. Hell even Bones was gone in his mind, though he could hear the doctor put in a "You know Uhura and I had something to do with it too."

"....Thanks, Spock... for saving my life..."
 

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[spohkh]

[It was always ingrained in Spock to be a proper house-guest.
He approached Winona.]

Is there anything I can do to assist with dinner?

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Huh? Oh! oh no, that's fine dear~ Thank you for offering. It's easy enough.

_{[Jim stepped in]}

Ah, is it rude of me to establish that Spock is a vegetarian?



ah...

And that kind of makes me a vegetarian too?

You are?

Most of the time, not all.

Right... well I was going to do porkchops but... I guess I can change it.



Hey, I have an idea Ma. Spock and I will make something. you can just sit.

_{[Doting son to the rescue.]}

[spohkh]

[Spock quirks an eyebrow... Jim didn't have to... but he was glad he did.]

Indeed, we can prepare the meal for you. I am certain that you will benefit from the rest. Would your husband mind a vegetarian fare?

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_{[Well she relaxed at the suggestion.]}

Very well.. and he might... depends on what you make.

He can have his own...whatever he wants. Spock won't get too offended, right? <sub>[he smirked at his love]

Frank withers without meat. He eats children.</sub>

But we can make something. _{[He scavenges through the fridge. Winona takes her iced tea to the table.]}

Well aren't you boys sweet... you gonna tell me how you two met?

[spohkh]

[Both of Spock's eyebrows went up into his hairline at that... though he knew Jim wasn't being literal, so he quickly hid his reaction from Winona.

Instead, he focused on Winona's question... a small half-smile appearing on his face at the memory.]

We met at a disciplinary hearing.

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A... disciplinary hearing? _{[She sighed]} Oh Jim, let me guess...

Hey it wasn't that bad. But... yeah, I may have outsmarted his program.

His? Spock's?

Yeah, he was programming the Kobayashi Maru.

Really. The unbeatable test.

Yeeeeeup.



And you're still marrying him?

_{[She looked to the vulcan... and raised her glass]}

I'm impressed. It takes a lot to get over Jim's deviant ways.

Thanks for the support.

Hm. _{[She smirked]}

[spohkh]

[Spock quirked an eyebrow...]

Actually, I have come to realize that the test itself was unfair... For how can you measure worth under pressure when you know it is fake...or you cannot win.
That is why on my advice, the council has since awarded Jim with ingenuity and original thinking for beating the test.

[Spock gives Jim a look...] It was I who proposed... it would be illogical not to marry Jim.
[Yup, you've turned Spock into a sucker.]

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_{[Jim looked at Spock in quiet disbelief. He was the one who overturned his hearing? His strict-to-the-core First?]}

I had no idea... you changed your mind on that...

_{[Oh Spock... you really got how stupid that program was? Consider him charmed! Meanwhile Winona chuckled dryly.]}

Logical? That's a...strange way to put it. Swept you off your feet, did he Jim?

_{[Jim shot his mother an expression that implied both lack of humor and complete sincerity. Haha, you were so funny when you jabbed at his significant other underhandedly]}

Yeah. He did.

[spohkh]

[Yeah, he did get it...
The Kobayashi Maru has since been severely altered to suit basic simulation needs. It was still a hard test...
...but there was now a way to 'win'. Now, the Vulcan admired Jim's bravery for standing up to his superiors.

Spock looked between the vegetable in his hand and Jim... asking silently what he should do with it.
Yeah, the Vulcan can't cook. Also, he didn't know he was being teased.]

Although I have been in a position to physically carry the Captain, thus 'sweeping him off his feet'... you are referring to a romantic 'turn of phrase' yes? In which case, the feeling is mutual.

[Yes Jim~ You've swept your Vulcan off his feet too.]

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Ah...what?

<sub>[Nope, Winona didn't get it. Sorry Spock. Wait, you carried Jim around? Why? Maybe he was hurt?

Jim was slicing his veggies, and motioned to his hands for Spock to get his direction. Just do as he does. And if that doesn't work he'll have to show you a bit more in depth...]</sub>

Well... that's great then... I'm glad for you both. When's the wedding?

Ah... no sure yet. Might be a while, got to plan everything and all.

Is Starfleet going to allow that?

Ah...

[spohkh]

[The Vulcan hummed at their inquiries.... Would Starfleet allow them to marry?
Spock started slicing the veggie he had.

The Vulcan didn't know what to say... If Jim was his bondmate, there would be no issue to be had, because there was no way anyone could separate them. But just a marriage?
Spock was... worried it wouldn't be enough.]

Though the regulations are extensive regarding relationships within the chain of command, the council could very well refuse us on the basis of emotional compromise. The role of the First Officer is to aid the Captain on decisions... would that change if there is a physical relationship? I realize that in our case, it is highly unlikely...
...but it is enough to be an annoyance from Starfleet.

[But... if they were bondmates... they couldn't be separated, and Starfleet would never give them hassle because...well... Vulcans are an endangered species.]

Then again, the public views us both, especially Jim, in a favourable light... perhaps that is enough to give us, as they say, 'clear sailing'.

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<sub>[Jim listened, wondering what Starfleet would really do. He didn't have Pike anymore to vouch for him... He didn't have anybody above him who was sympathetic to him who could maybe help sway the brass in his favor. His performance in the last two earth-saving missions would have to speak for itself. He and Spock hadn't lost judgment over each other so far...

What if they did get rejected? Could he handle being separated from Spock? Or leaving Starfleet to be with him?

Winona hummed.]</sub>



Highly unlikely? I doubt that, dear. You say that now but just you wait. Marriage has a tendency to change the way you handle your partner...Starfleet has reason to assume that will happen. They could keep you apart and really might. Are you sure you want to chance it, Jim? You finally have a good thing going here...

_{[Kind of a jab at her son being a royal fuck up until now]}

They permitted your father and I but I wasn't an officer. I can't say I have any experience on that front but the sudden lack of personnel will probably help.

[spohkh]

[Spock looked sharply over at Winona... He was a logical creature, and thus he could not fault her for her ignorance.
Jim was T'hy'la, there would be no other.]

You are measuring this relationship from a human perspective Missus Kirk... I am Vulcan. For me, there is no other.

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Hm? _{[Winona looked at Spock, confused. Then cleared her throat]}


What? I only meant that being together can often keep you from being objective. Considering you two are Captain and Commander, Starfleet will probably take that into consideration.

_{[And maybe Jim ought to rethink throwing away the good thing he has going being the captain of a new ship and all... over you. You seemed strange. Granted Jim seemed to be into strange things... at least she thought so. Sometimes. Winona didn't have a very good grasp on what her son liked and disliked honestly, she was so out of touch. But still. He was finally shaping up and he was about to throw it all away on you? She didn't think much of the idea.]}

I...

Wait, what now?

_{[She just now let what Spock said sink in.]}

No other?



... Jim what is he saying?

_{[Jim sighed]}

We're not breaking up, that's all he means.

_{[Oh.....oh wonderful.]}

That email? all of it... seriously, ALL OF IT YES. XD <3

[spohkh]

[Spock tilted his head as he turned to give Winona his full attention...]

Missus Kirk... Would it be correct to assume that you do not find this an optimal situation?
If you have concerns, I ask you to please voice them.

[It was no good staying silent... may as well get it all out in the open. And with a Vulcan there, it was unlikely to turn into an argument.]

Didja get my adhd message in your inbox?

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[Jim paused, a bit surprised at Spock's move... And a bit horrified. While part of him wanted to see his mom squirm, he knew he had to stop this before feelings got hurt. Spock, what are you thinking? Meanwhile Winona blinked at Spock. This was refreshing.]

Well you don't beat around the bush... I like that.

Mom...

No, Jim he's right... I do have an issue but it might not be with you per se Spock... I don't understand what I'm looking at here. Since when Jim? I mean has this always been your preference? Am I just that out of touch? Aren't you too... Emotional for him?

[Jim rolled his eyes]

Don't you roll your eyes at me, son.

[Spooock what have you dooone?

It was an awesome message~ And yes, ALL OF IT. XD

[spohkh]

[Spock's lips twitched in a small smile, amused at the interaction between mother and son... but turned his face stoic once more.]

She is a parent Jim... she has a right to be involved... and worried. My mother once told me it was a mother's full time job to worry.
[Yup, he was buttering Winona up...]

Missus Kirk... I cannot answer for Jim, however I can safely say that he is not 'too emotional for me'. He is my balance...
This is not something Vulcans speak of to outsiders, however I believe you have a right to know. [Spock hesitated for a moment...]

To fully understand our relationship, you must consider it from a Vulcan perspective. Jim is my T'hy'la... a word that means that Jim was predestined to be my 'other'... my soulmate. This means that no matter the distance or situation, the universe would eventually bring us together... where we are meant to be.

I realize that this may sound... rather illogical for a race that prides themselves on logical thinking. However, our emotions run deep, deeper than that of humans...In this case, love is logical, and I would never see Jim other than what he was meant to be...
...the greatest Captain ever to be recruited by Starfleet. I am honoured to be his support.

[Spock paused... allowing the silence to swallow them and let the words sink in. The Vulcan blushed... not having meant to speak for that length on his feelings. But Spock was proud of Jim... of his accomplishments... and he wanted to make sure that Winona knew that.]

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[both of them were quiet. Jim was floored by how Spock openly spoke of his support. Was he kissing his ass? That sounded a bit out of touch... But he agreed so whatever.

Winona looked stunned but slowly she spoke.]

... I... Well... Wow. I... Can you tell me more about that? Does this happen often? I don't hear of vulcans marrying offworld...

So explain to me. What are your intentions with my son?

[Jim groaned but Winina ignored him.]

Are you going to be there for him? Emotionally?

[spohkh]

[Kissing his ass? Far from it... Spock is being entirely truthful.
The Vulcan quirks an eyebrow at Winona, but squares his shoulders and gives her everything.]

A T'hy'la bond has not come to pass in over a millennium... it is a rare and treasured circumstance....and it is allowed to come to its full potential then it will be stronger than any mental bond in Vulcan history.
[But that's only if they bond... Spock hopes this isn't putting pressure on Jim...]

My intention is to marry your son...and provide for him in any way that I can.
[Spock glances at Jim, a blush high on his cheeks.]
I will be there for him in any capacity that he desires... If I fail to support him emotionally, then I can only hope that we use that situation to grow together in understanding.
I have much to learn about human emotions.

[Spock goes quiet... this is more than he's ever shared.... and he really wants to run and hide right now. He doesn't really show it though.. he's still standing straight, with a stoic expression...
...but his human eyes...
....they're nervous.]

I love that icon of him

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_{[There's some pressure there, yes... he knows Spock really wants this. But he remembers how much he's wanted Spock and how LONG he's wanted Spock... so he has to consider just how long he intends to draw this waiting out. He's not someone who needs a long time to make his mind up but this was a heavy decision either way. He'd give it the respect it deserved. He'd be lying if he said he wasn't hesitant regardless about Spock seeing all his ugly memories...]}

What makes you so sure Jim is this... ta-high... whatever you call it?

_{[She's kind of not paying attention to what Spock is saying. This is getting a bit too in-depth for her and she's starting to dissociate. Her baby is getting married? The one she birthed when George died... how had so much time gotten away? She feels impoverished for knowledge about who Jim is. Any mother should know their child better than she knows Jim. She knows he's a different person under the acting out and the drinking. There's a whole other man under there if she could just reach him... but to do that was impossible. She'd have to tread through her grief over losing George and that just wasn't something Winona was willing or perhaps even able to do. She was faced with not knowing her son but in order to get to know him she'd have to face the guilt of never being there, of indirectly neglecting her children and having nothing to show for it. She hadn't gotten over losing her husband, not one little bit. Frank was a distraction. Jim was a reminder. She hid from him under the guise of providing for her family and she buried her pain, nursed it into bitterness, and grew skeptical over the years. Then this man, this vulcan, comes to her speaking of things she used to believe in and even had for herself at one time when her life wasn't a delicate facade. She yearned to have the faith and optimism required to be that person once more. And for a moment she loathed that her son had what she had lost.]}

Jim's a troubled man, Spock.

_{[Jim heard her voice change. She was getting defensive. Great]}

He's never held a long term relationship down before, what makes you think he'll be any different for you?

Mom, leave him alone.

Do you know what kind of man Jim was before Starfleet?

Stop

_{[Jim hissed... in his captain's voice.]}

<3

[spohkh]

[Spock's eyebrows twitched again.... but this time it was not in concern, it was in impatience...
...but impatience in a Vulcan was much better than impatience in a human.
Spock put a hand on Jim's shoulder.... assuring him with a touch as he stepped toward Winona.]

Missus Kirk... I ask that you consider what you have just said, and how emotionally damaging they might be. Perhaps it would be wise that instead of showing how much you do not know your son, you make an effort to remedy that issue.

[This was no-nonsense Spock... and he was defending his T'hy'la while trying to remain respectful to his future mother-in-law.]

You have been given an opportunity that not many receive... a second chance so to speak.
It would be wise not to waste it.

[Spock had to leave the room, there was nothing for it. With a final bow of his head to Winona, he turned to Jim and gave him a quick kiss with his fingers...
..and left the room.

He went upstairs and sat in a meditative pose on the bed. He would give Jim and Winona a moment to themselves. Plus, Spock needed a reprieve from the raw emotions that both Kirks were expressing.]

/clings. Will I see you this evening?

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Ah... what?

_{[Good luck being respectful Spock. All you've done is piss her off. Winona smiled at her son in almost surprised derision. He was telling her to be quiet? Oh... and so was the vulcan. Granted she had enjoyed his no-nonsense before but now it annoyed her.]}

And what would you know about emotional damage? What are... who do you think you are talking to me like that!?

<sub>[But Spock was already leaving. She was suddenly alone in a room with a vexed son. Jim crossed his arms when Spock left them, clearly less than pleased with his mother. Terse and vibrant words were soon to follow. Spock had good intentions and Jim could appreciate that but he was still poorly schooled in emotions and... while his goal was a noble one... it ended simply with an Winona feeling judged and defensive and Jim having to deal with the results alone.

There was a lot happening downstairs, yelling could be heard. Spock... don't you want to even peek at the trouble you've caused?]</sub>

I'm not sure~ I'll be in and out though~

[spohkh]

[Spock felt bad... he could hear the elevated voices coming from downstairs and knew that he was the cause of them.
The Vulcan found himself wrong once more....

Curiosity won over as he slowly unfolded himself from the bed and walked out onto the landing... sitting down on the top step of the stairs.
He purposely put himself within hearing range... his curiosity too much to stay in his room.]

What's happening? A party? Are you getting drunk without me? Not cool :l

[demon_prosecutor]

_{[With Spock sitting like a spying child while mother and son fought...]}

“Oh so this whole visit was just to tear me down is it? Right, I'm the worst mother in the world.”

“I didn't say that.”

“Go on! I ruined your life, I made you take to drinking and sleeping around and breaking and entering--”

“Would you stop?”

Strange for Jim to allow himself to be talked over by this woman. Winona was perhaps the one woman he allowed to buffalo him. Albeit with frustration.

“I don't think you need to stay here if this is how you're going to be.”

“Could you just listen?”

“No, no I think I've heard quite enough James.”

“Mom, please.”

“Here I thought I might get to see my son for a change. Silly me.”

“Oh not that again.”

“I think we've had enough for tonight Jim.”

“You're not letting me say anything!”

“We can talk tomorrow if you want but I don't want to hear any more from your... your fiance.”

“You're not even mad at him! You're mad at yourself, I know you are. You always do this! You always make that face.”

“Stop it, Jim. You think you can just come in my house--”

“Your house? Judging by who actually uses it and when this is my house more than it ever was yours. You've lived here, what, two years total? Ever?”

“Stop it!” her voice was as shrill command that silenced the whole house. “No more... I think you and Spock should go.”

“Wha? No... mom...”

“I don't like what's happening here.”

“You're upsetting yourself, he didn't do anything wrong.”

“Defend him all you want. He can say whatever he likes about me. But not in my house.”

Jim wanted to yell. This was the same shit he dealt with his whole life. His mother just dismissing him without ever understanding how he felt or what the real problem was. Shutting him out like a nuisance rather than a son.

Jim paused, then huffed. From the sound of his breath and his subsequent footsteps it was clear he was impatient, even angry. He approached the foot of the stairs, into Spock's line of sight though the captain didn't notice him. His hand raised to touch the banister though it never did meet the wood. Fingers curled into a fist and his face relaxed as he grew determined. He turned around and walked back to his mother, never noticing Spock on the stairs.

“Jim, no.”

“Oh I'll be done quick. Then we'll be gone.” Jim's voice was passionate with anger, colorful and full of pent up energy. As if he'd been wanting to say this for years. There was a promise in his tone when he said 'gone'. As if he was promising forever.

“He's right. You already lost Sam. You're about to lose your other son the same way. I'm not playing this game anymore.”

“Don't you threaten me boy.”

“You always reach out to me but shut me out. You. Always. Do. This!”

“You know I have a hard time, but I've always been there for you as long as you're civil--”

“You were never there for me! Not any time I needed you!”

“I did what I could to provide for you! I raised you the best way I knew how!”

“Keep telling yourself that! We both knew you were hiding in space because you couldn't face us. You've been feeling sorry for yourself for twenty six years. You're still using your son's disappearance for sympathy bait.”

“You have the nerve to say that to me!?”

“You never even looked for him!”

“I put out a missing persons report--”

“After I couldn't. I looked for him, I looked for years mom, years after you gave up. You fucking gave up! I can't ever forgive you for that.”

“I... what do you want Jim?” Winona's voice split as she began crying. “I lost your father then Little George... I couldn't take it, alright? What do you want from me?”

“For you to fucking be present once in a while. You never were before, but Spock's right. You have another chance to at least try to be in my life.”

“I was there.” she whispered, almost curiously as though she was discovering the subject under discussion for the first time. “I was there, Jimmy. I raised you.”

“I raised myself!”

“...”

“You pity yourself because your husband died and your son ran away but I lost them too. I never knew my father and my brother ran away and I never had a mom. Don't make that face, you're alive but you've never been present. You're too busy feeling sorry for yourself and taking every assignment off planet you possibly can.”

“I never knew you hated me so much...” Winona was wallowing in the throughs of self pity. “It's not fair.”

“I can't hate you, I love you mom. I want you around but I want you to get over the past, you're missing everything!”

“No, it's... it's not fair that you can't have a mother who endears you. I get it.” her voice was laiden with sarcasm. Jim groaned.

“You know what's really not fair, Mom? Spock lost his mother. Really lost her, she died.”

“...Sorry to hear that.”

“No you're not but I met this woman for just a few minutes. She's the nicest lady I ever met, I wish I had a mother like her. She was excited to be in Spock's life. She was fucking eager to talk about her son to me. If she were still alive I know she'd be in Spock's life, she'd be involved in everything she could. He couldn't keep her away. And you sit here with the chance she probably wishes she could have, still breathing and openly throwing your son to the wolves.”

“So what, you wish I was dead and she was alive?”

“I want you stop living in the past! He's dead mom! He's never coming back and your life is passing you by in the meantime. I don't want you to become a lonely old woman still grieving over a man who died decades ago.”

"Goddammit Jim you make it sound so easy! Like I just turn it on and off."

:p

[spohkh]

[Spock's fingers shake as he listens to Jim and Winona... As soon as he notices them he holds them tight together, knuckles going white with the pressure.
The Vulcan wonders if he should go down there and intervene... but this wasn't his fight, wasn't his mother. Sure, he may have started this, but this was something that's been brewing since Jim was born.
The Vulcan vowed that he would do his best to love Jim enough so that he never felt as though he was missing out. But... unless Winona and Jim came to some sort of understanding, there would always be something lacking in Jim's life..
...and for that he was sorry.

Spock's ears perked when he heard his mother being mentioned... His eyebrows creased in concern and surprise. Jim's words would have greatly hurt Winona...

All humans deserved compassion, and both these humans were hurting deeply.. and Spock was out of his depth. He didn't know what to do...
Would he offer to mind-meld with Winona? No... her mind was so closed off that it would take more than Vulcan strength to penetrate her barriers. Plus, he didn't want to damage her.


He only hoped that Jim came out of this in one piece.
Ashaya... Spock loves you so much... and he's sorry.]