K/S Hospital Scene bc Into Darkness was so K/S TASTIC

[done_in_3]

It was so sudden. He woke up with a flash, bright lights, soft sounds, a bed, he was alive?? But he'd died in the chamber...in engineering. Spock and he had exchanged that vulcan hand-thing whatever the hell it was. He'd died, he was dead. Was this heaven? Holy....

No. Bones was here nagging at him.

"Oh don't be so melodramatic, you were barely dead. You've been out cold for two weeks."

He was so...taken aback. What had happened? He just remembered being in the locked chamber watching Spock shed tears, glimmering tears of anguish as he slowly died of radiation poisoning... his heart lurched at the memory. He didn't know the vulcan was even capable...

And then Spock was in the room, approaching him. Suddenly... everything else was forgotten. Hell even Bones was gone in his mind, though he could hear the doctor put in a "You know Uhura and I had something to do with it too."

"....Thanks, Spock... for saving my life..."
 

Comments

[spohkh]

It would indeed hurt Jim. It would be akin to tearing off a limb... only it is in your mind.
It is why Vulcan marriages are only dealt with seriously, and on a permanent basis. It is possible for two individuals to break the bond if they are not compatible.... because the bond itself is not strong.
However, the stronger it is, the more painful it is when the bond is damaged in any way.

To break it entirely....

....Jim is human, he would survive it.

[Spock... would not. If anything, he was amazed his father survived Amanda's death. However, they were not T'hy'la... that changed things.]

[done_in_3]

... But you wouldn't?

_{[She clearly had no idea Spock was risking that much to be with her son. That changed things a bit...]}

And Jim knows this?

[spohkh]

Missus Kirk... the only way I would willingly break the bond if it is what Jim wanted.
As for how much Jim knows... he knows enough. I do not wish him to feel trapped.

[done_in_3]

Alright... I appreciate your concern for Jim's perspective.

But there's also such thing as leaving too much out, Spock. Don't you think he should know that?

[spohkh]

Perhaps... but then, Jim never did like ultimatums.

[Spock was silent for a moment.
Should he really tell Jim the full consequences of the bond? If anything, to inform him now would only imply that he should have told him earlier.

But then, nothing was easy between them.]

When Jim is well... I will inform him.

[done_in_3]

It's up to you ultimately. Though while he doesn't feel trapped right now technically he is.

Whatever works for your partnership. I understand not wanting him to feel trapped. But I think that should have come up before you bonded. It's no matter, it's all in the past now....

I think we would both do well to become better versed in the victims of abuse. I don't know about you but I'm getting plenty of books on it to start with.

[spohkh]

Indeed... that is a wise decision.

[Research articles, books.... anything he could get his hands on he would. But for now, all they had was each other...

...a rather interesting situation for sure though far from humourous.

Since meeting Jim, he has learned the painful truth about himself... He was a selfish creature. He wanted Jim... He wanted Jim to be safe, even if it meant keeping him suffocatingly close. But he knew he couldn't do that. Things were going to inevitably change now that they were bonded...

...and they were going to have to have talk soon.
For now... they had to wait.]

[done_in_3]

[She could understand wanting someone close no matter the cost. She felt that easy for her late husband. But Jim would ultimately have the decision with Spock. Though she hoped he wouldn't damn the poor boy to death. Jim will be in a very difficult place feeling trapped for sure.]

Why don't you tell me everything bc about this bond now? In case there's some other glaring detail that's been overlooked.

[spohkh]

[Spock sat up straight and regarded Winona...]

You must understand Missus Kirk... Jim and I are T'hy'la, a bond that has not been recorded in Vulcan history for almost a thousand years. What I know is extremely limited.

[Spock hesitated for a moment. It was ingrained in Vulcans from a young age that these things weren't spoken of to outsiders. Even then it was something only limited to family members...

...well...

Winona was family now. Technically.]

It is.... difficult to explain in human terms. Vulcans feel differently than humans... perceive differently. Perhaps I can once again show you, if you are amenable.

[Spock was suggesting another mind meld.]

[done_in_3]

You're rather generous with those. Are all Vulcans like that?

I'm afraid I'll have to say no for now. I'd like to take you up on that when I have time to recover.

... I don't think I knew that. Your bond is that rare? How do the Vulcans feel about it?

[spohkh]

[Spock blushed as he looked away...]

Forgive me... I have been using them as a 'cheat'. I have difficulty explaining in terms that humans can understand.

And I am not 'generous' as you say... rather, melding with someone once leaves behind a mental signature... a familiarity. You are family and I have melded with you once before. My mind finds yours a comfort rather than an intrusion.

[Spock considers for a moment...]

As far as I am aware, only my father knows of the T'hy'la bond... however, he will no doubt inform our clan leader, T'pau... who is also head of the Vulcan high council. Jim is now a member of the house of Surak... my family house.

[done_in_3]

... forgive me. I meant no offense, only that melding exhausts both of us and we need to stay sharp for Jim. If they need to ask us anything regarding his medical future I'd be useless if we did that now. I'm still recovering from the last one.

... I know who T'Pau is. She is a relative of yours?

Surok, is that your surname?

[spohkh]

T'Pau is my grandmother... and my surname is 'S'chn T'gai'. Surak was the Vulcan that started the reform to logic... and is the oldest clan on Vulcan.

[Spock thought of his grandmother... and her ways. She was a fierce leader in her own way, but she also had a quirky personality.]

She was one of my mother's supporters, I foresee no issue on her behalf in regards to Jim.

[done_in_3]

The reform... right when Vulcan became logical and emotionless. I think most earthlings forget that is a learned behavior.

Your grandmother is T'Pau... Spock are... is your family nobility on Vulcan?

[spohkh]

Nobility.... That is such a curious word. It implies a class system yes? Well, while Vulcans do try to not favour one family over the other, there is an old tradition of honour.

I was once engaged to a female Vulcan by the name of T'Pring. Her family wanted more honour, so they made a proposition with my family and agreed that our mental compatibility was sufficient.

They were wrong.

[done_in_3]

_{[She raised an eyebrow at that. Sure, Vulcans perhaps thought of classes as irrelevant and illogical. But Spock was engaged before?]}

An arranged marriage?.... who... broke it off? You or her?

[spohkh]

She wanted nothing to do with me... and I wanted nothing to do with her. The initial bond that we shared that showed the status of 'intended' did not last and it merely.... dissipated.

[Spock looks at Winona with a raised eyebrow...]

Once the elders realized their mistake, they did not seek to 'push' the matter. As for who specifically broke it off, it was very much a mutual decision.

[done_in_3]

I see... So marriage is taken pretty seriously by the vulcans?

_{[That's a bit of relief.]}

Tell me more. What is a typical vulcan marriage like? What are the gender roles? I doubt Jim has thought much about it beyond the fact that he's into you.

What do you expect from my son?

[spohkh]

[Spock tried his best not to blush... All these questions? Very improper for a Vulcan.]

What I expect of Jim and what Vulcan expects of Jim are completely different things Missus Kirk. What you need to understand is that I am half-human and Vulcan no longer exists. What I expect is that Jim and I last as bondmates... nothing more, and nothing less.

I had not... expected that he would accept my proposal.

As for a typical Vulcan marriage, the bond is its center. Any ceremony that follows is mere formality, and not strictly necessary. There are no gender rolls as such... but...

There are... certain specifics that need to be taken care of... [Spock's blush darkens as he looks away. There was no way in hell that he was talking about Pon Farr with Winona Kirk.]

[done_in_3]

_{[She nodded as he talked. Formalities and kind sentiments. Jim didn't have to do anything he didn't want to in essence.]}

You hadn't expected him to? But I thought you were such destined partners? Wouldn't it seem a given for him to agree?

_{[Then Spock blushed and Winona did too after shutting her eyes to keep from rolling them. Did he really just bring up that he had to consummate the marriage with her son? Oh for the love of.... well at least he curbed it and at least he had the decency to blush about it.... and at least he apparently had the decency not to sleep with her son yet. Though she was so sure they had been. They slept in the same room she just assumed... But no matter. She'd rather not dwell here.]}

[spohkh]

[Spock looks uncomfortable as he struggles to explain... At least she didn't press for more information. It was going down a path Spock did not want to go down.]

Jim is... Telsu... a gift. Too good to be true. I had no right to assume that he would allow his mind to be bonded to my own. To ask someone to give up their very privacy to another being...

...some would say that it is too much of a sacrifice. I would content myself to fulfill any role that Jim desired... even if it meant that I was to simply remain his friend.

[done_in_3]

_{[She nods, accepting his words as they are and nothing more. She isn't going to be impressed or displeased by his words but he was still a stranger to her, though not quite... he wasn't a close trusted individual. His claim to be happy with Jim in any capacity was enough to charm the casual listener but Winona was skeptical and hard to appease in her bitter widowhood.]}

I see. I'm glad you put some consideration into it. You already know that Jim often doesn't.

[spohkh]

[Spock's eyebrows twitch...ready to disagree with Winona.
Jim was very considerate.... just not in the usual way. Yet... he can see that Winona is still very guarded around him...

...as he was around her.]

You must understand Missus Kirk... Vulcans do not 'share' emotions or feelings with one another. It is considered inappropriate and improper. [Spock gives her a look... willing her to understand that everything he had just told her...
...was really very hard for him to share. It just wasn't the Vulcan way.... And in essence, she was asking him to forget everything he had learned growing up.]

[done_in_3]

....


Have I... done something wrong?


.....Sorry. _{[She looked away.]}



I won't ask anymore. I didn't mean to offend you.

[spohkh]

[Spock shakes his head.]

It is illogical to hold blame to one who does not know. There is no offense taken...

...however, I do not have much comfort speaking of such things with....anyone.
I ask that you merely have patience with me and to not withhold your curiosity.