K/S Hospital Scene bc Into Darkness was so K/S TASTIC

[done_in_3]

It was so sudden. He woke up with a flash, bright lights, soft sounds, a bed, he was alive?? But he'd died in the chamber...in engineering. Spock and he had exchanged that vulcan hand-thing whatever the hell it was. He'd died, he was dead. Was this heaven? Holy....

No. Bones was here nagging at him.

"Oh don't be so melodramatic, you were barely dead. You've been out cold for two weeks."

He was so...taken aback. What had happened? He just remembered being in the locked chamber watching Spock shed tears, glimmering tears of anguish as he slowly died of radiation poisoning... his heart lurched at the memory. He didn't know the vulcan was even capable...

And then Spock was in the room, approaching him. Suddenly... everything else was forgotten. Hell even Bones was gone in his mind, though he could hear the doctor put in a "You know Uhura and I had something to do with it too."

"....Thanks, Spock... for saving my life..."
 

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[spohkh]

[Spock groaned.... angling his face so that he kissed Jim's temple...]

Ashaya...
No, Jim...

[Spock continued his languid pace... and lifted his head so that he could look at Jim's face.]

Look at me Jim.

[done_in_3]

Mnnn

_{[he whined as he looked into Spock's eyes. He needed something. He needed Spock to move faster, finish him off, to calm him down from the emotional discharge he'd had downstairs... to fuck the pain away. His eyes pleaded.]}

... please, Spock.

[spohkh]

[Spock leans his forehead against Jim's... refusing to change his pace.
The Vulcan shudders against Jim's cooler skin.]

I am here Ashaya... be here with me.
[Spock can feel that mind crying out to him...
Spock can't give him this... not like this. Not in this frame of mind.

Instead Spock removes his hands from Jim's wrists... on hand goes to Jim's length... pumping in a rhythm to match Spock's thrusting..

...the other cups Jim's face as Spock kisses him once more.]

[done_in_3]

_{[In that moment.. Jim stared into Spock's eyes, his own burning into the inky black depths. He read his First, slowly coming to understand he was serious about not giving in. He wasn't going to get his way this time and he rebelled at first. He whined and growled a bit but the darkness... swayed. Jim seemed to surface from his strange unnamable ailment. His mind felt familiar once more as he resigned himself to regular sex... and purred in contentment, offering Spock a 'clean' set of moans that were only made of pleasure, euphoria, and love.]}

[spohkh]

[Spock let out a breath of air that he did not know he was holding and continued on... caressing Jim's face causing tingling sensations to follow the path those fingers traversed.

Spock knew he wasn't going to last long, being his first time like this... His shuddering intensified as his growl stuttered.]

Jim... J-Jim...!

Uh oh! 666th comment. the devil comment!

[done_in_3]

<sub>[he shivered again as Spock touched his face. He could do that?? this time, writhing once more, tossing his head to the side. His emotions were pure this time, no darkness to be felt. He was pure ecstasy, feeling his one and only inside him, his unobtainable First...

He had little time left with that hotter-than-human hand jacking him. That double ridged phallus and oh was he noticing that now that it had his full attention. His cries rose in pitch. In the final throughs of it, he grabbed Spock's face, making sure they were eye to eye. He wanted to watch his mate come...]</sub>

Come for me, Spock... Do it.

pffffft~ XD

[spohkh]

[Spock whined as he desperately searched Jim's eyes... looking for any trace of the darkness that he had sensed before. Finding nothing but pure and utter Jim Spock gasped as he came... his body freezing as he was overcome with the amazing ecstasy... and being surrounded by Jim...

...his t'hy'la.
Shuddering through the waves of aftershocks, Spock leaned his forehead against Jim's... breathing him in. The Vulcan's hand continued to move over Jim, wanting to bring the human to completion as well.]

Eeeeevil

[done_in_3]

<sub>[He was completely himself, shivering only with pleasure, only with love and want and in the safety of his love's hold.

He was safe... yes.

He melted against Spock's touch, moaning his name once as he came. He wrapped his arms around him, holding on like a lifeline. Arching against him, closing his eyes against his touch.]</sub>

>:D

[spohkh]

[Spock nuzzled into Jim's neck, savouring the contact and the scent of his T'hy'la...
This was home, and place where he was whole.

The part of Spock's mind that wasn't blissed out was still completely unnerved by Jim's earlier actions. The Vulcan had wanted to take his time and savour each and every inch of Jim... but he could do that any time. What worried him the most was the darkness that Spock felt.
It was as if Jim wanted to be hurt.
Did Jim feel like he had to be punished? That was illogical, he had done nothing wrong...
Spock's mind was buzzing with a thousand questions, not being able to completely understand the connect emotional reactions that Jim had projected.

The Vulcan shifted off of Jim and stretched out beside him... carding a hand through his golden locks. Spock's chest rumbled with a contented purr... hoping to lull Jim into a much needed sleep.]

I just saw Black Swan, I am shell shocked.... just... wow

[done_in_3]

_{[He held Spock close, stoking his skin... then he leaned into the caress as Spock pet his hair. He seemed a whole other man now. A calm one, pure, blissful, content... he laid against Spock's chest, listening and feeling the purr... and did as his mate willed. He was exhausted already, sleep was but a whim away... he closed his eyes and was gone. Deep into slumber leaving Spock aloe with his need for answers.]}

*snerk*

[spohkh]

[Spock held Jim close as he lost himself in thought.

It had pained him to see Jim so... what was that anyway? The Vulcan didn't have a word for it.
It was as if Jim was lost... his mind clouded in fear and desperate want of something that Spock did not want to give. The last thing on the Vulcan's mind was to hurt Jim... and yet, that's what Spock saw. Jim wanted to be hurt... to be taken brutally.

A dark part of Spock's mind smirked... taunting him with the fact that yes.. he could hurt Jim a lot, and quite easily too. It was only a matter of losing some of that Vulcan control.
That terrified Spock deeply... That dark part reminded him of all the things that Spock had yet to tell Jim about Vulcans... and that Jim being human was not an advantage.
The Vulcan nearly shuddered at the thought.

His mind once again focused on his T'hy'la... He needed answers, yet he knew that asking Jim wouldn't produce what he needed to know. Sure he could get all the raw facts, but the knowledge on how to deal with these... raw emotions wasn't going to come from Jim.
Winona was no good to go to... Sam, while lost, wouldn't know what to do either what with being absent from Jim's life for so long.

Spock nearly sighed, but refrained from the painfully human action. He needed to meditate... his mind was almost sore from everything he's had to process.
Closing his eyes, the Vulcan slowed his breathing and relaxed his body. Laying against Jim he slipped into a deep meditative state.]

No really, I am dreaming up a completely ooc ballet AU.

[done_in_3]

_{[Spock was wise in his assumptions. None of the humans he knew could help him here. But there was one... who would only make himself known once the vulcan reached deep meditation state. Once established, Spock would sense...applause. A slow clap, or at least the man's desire to give him one.]}

Congratulations Spock... you did it. I knew you would.

pfffffff!

[spohkh]

[Spock stood in the darkness of his subconscious... eyes searching for the source of the sound.]

Who is there?

[Spock was greatly unnerved... who had infiltrated his mental space? But... that voice was also very familiar. Something he had heard recently.]

No like... I got the whole story now. Imagine Spock as a dancer, ooc yes but he'd be *fabulous*

[done_in_3]

_{[The voice approached and from the darkness... there formed the image of a man Spock ought to know on sight. Captain George Kirk Sr.]}

Forgive me for intruding but a lot went into bringing me here on such short notice. But Jim needs your help and in order to give it, you need mine. This is a highly complicated emotional issue and most humans couldn't decipher it. Lucky for you I've watched Jim his whole life and I know what's going on here.

_{[Let him get right to the point, time is of the essence.]}

You've seen what's inside Jim now. What happened because of Kodos' attack. You know what I'm talking about...

Simply fabulous~

[spohkh]

[Spock's eyes land on George Kirk... the infamous Captain.

It's amazing how much Jim looks like him.
Spock swallows and inclines his head.]

Mister Kirk... I do indeed know what you are referring to.. And I admit that I am at a loss. Jim's actions have been...

....chaotic and dangerous. I do not know why he acts this way.

Are you getting on tonight? Or shall I pm you about it?

[done_in_3]

_{[He nods in return, casually waving away the need for a formal greeting.]}

Don't judge Jim too harshly. He isn't entirely aware of why he does this either. It's a typical response for any victim of rape, but especially so in adults who were raped as children.

_{[He spoke calmly, almost too calmly. As if speaking of this was igniting a deadly flame within him that he had to will into compliance.]}

He wanted you to be rough with him and get as close to actually raping him as possible. It's an attempt to recreate the original trauma. He's trying to desensitize himself... to make it mean nothing. And that is never going to work, he's tried this before and it only dulls the pain for a little while. He'll feel brave for a few hours in the morning but he only relives the shame and disgust with himself later. It hurts him in the long run but for victims of rape even a small reprieve is a welcome one...

But you refused to give into it which is something no one else ever did. I can guarantee you Jim will respect you more for that later. I do too, I think you understand the gravity of Jim's submission to you and its importance. Giving up sexual control isn't easy for him, in fact him yielding to you so soon was a big leap of faith. And whether he knows it yet or not, he feels safer with you.

That PM was beautiful. XD

[spohkh]

[Spock was... silent.
The Vulcan started to pace as he considered all of the information he was given. It was all starting to piece together... Jim's emotional inconsistencies and questionable habits. The need to place himself in danger and reckless behaviour...

...To be almost afraid of love. Jim was a victim in all of this... Spock could only imagine Jim's perspective on life...

...everything must be inherently 'bad'.
Surely Jim did not think he was undeserving... did he?
The Vulcan looked sharply at George, his eyes desperate for answers.]

What should I do?

[This was a Vulcan... albeit half-human...but a Vulcan nonetheless admitting that he didn't know what to do, that this was out of his depth.
The Primal part of him wanted to growl and nash his teeth in frustration and anger... to go out and destroy Jim's enemies with his bare hands...
It was like standing in Winona's kitchen...
...and the feeling of wanting to both sympathize and throttle her.]

I'm building on it too. omg. there is an all mens ballet. I think Jim should be this awesome hotshot

[only1highlander]

_{[George was cautious, careful not to speak until Spock was finished thinking through it all.]}

Understand that Jim is wounded. Damaged. He's never dealt with the hurt over Kodos' abuse. He's only covered it up with distractions... imagine a wound you only covered with a bandage and never cleaned. How would it look over time? Swollen, infected, hyper sensitive to pain... takes a long time to heal.

Jim's pain is a lot like this... and it won't be easy for him. Or you. But... don't quit. Your job to help him will be hard but you have the advantage of being able to do it. Jim trusts you and that is saying a lot. my son has trusted perhaps two people since Kodos and the other one is Admiral Pike.

_{[He approached Spock, taking him by the shoulders to halt his pacing. He took a steady breath the vulcan was intended to mimic.]}

Relax. Be patient. Be gentle. Always be willing to withdraw if he gets in over his head, it can happen in a millisecond, suddenly he's overwhelmed and he'll never admit it for fear of being weak.

... I really hope he bonds with you soon. It'll make your job a lot easier... honestly you can't help him completely heal without that window into his mind.

:p

[spohkh]

[Spock calmed himself...and looked rather bemused for a moment.]


Mister Kirk... It would be an honour to bond with your son. However, I cannot help but feel...
...relieved at your obvious approval.
[Spock's expression sobered...]

I would never quit on him.

[only1highlander]

_{[He paused. Smirked. Then patted Spock's shoulder.]}

I've liked you for a long time, kid. I've known ever since I died. I knew you'd worship the ground he walked on but don't cut yourself so short alright? He has to earn you too. You're one of a kind, believe me.

_{[But, back to the subject at hand...]}

He's just going to take some time, Spock. You are a patient person and that's to your advantage because Jim is not going to be any kind of eager to do healing work once this process begins. _{[Imagine cleaning that infected, swollen, neglected wound...]}

But he's got to. It's the same as surgery or medicine or anything unpleasant that leads to a greater good. He's sick and the infection needs to leave him.

....


Alright. For future reference, Spock. If and when you bond with Jim you're going to see that darkness again in another form. You couldn't have detected it until now because Jim is great at masking it. It's come up in missions, when he's flying in space at your side... you'd never have known. He gets these moments of pure dread where Kodos' presence gets in his mind. He... goes to a dark place and relives some of those feelings. Disgust, being exposed and vulnerable, anticipating attack, shame...

It's those moments that drive him to drink or sleep with a stranger or risk his own life. It's moments like that you have to be there with him and keep him safe from himself. He's so ingrained in these terrible habits he doesn't know how to handle it in a healthy way. Distract him. Talk about something with him, make him engage in something else. Do not let him go until the moment has passed... does that make any sense?

[spohkh]

[Spock nods...]

Indeed... your logic is sound.

[The Vulcan thought.... this new information making him see Jim in a new light.
Indeed, now that Spock knew what to look for he realizes that there has been a pattern present this entire time. Every moment Spock wondered why the Captain was in a particular mood... when he would come back from shore leave utterly damaged...

Jim was like diffusing a bomb. It was delicate work.]
I thank thee for this information...

[Spock regards the man who looks so much like Jim in front of him... and realizes that he has had contact with his mother. He swallows... ]

Tell her...
[Spock can't quite get out the words....All he ever wanted to do was tell her he loved her one last time.]

[only1highlander]

I wish I could help you more, Spock... but doing a little outside research won't hurt you.

_{[George paused, looking curious for Spock's next words... then smiles.]}

She already knows... but I will. She and I are pretty good friends now... actually now that I think about it she told me to tell you... aww damn I was so focused on Jim... hold on.

_{[he concentrated for a moment.]}

She loves you very much. And the rest were... things she wanted to tell you about what you've been worrying about...

She's fine here. She's got me so she's not alone... no we're not together like that, she's got your father and I have my wife. But we're a strange sort of friends.

Don't go to Toronto, she enraged her whole family by marrying your father, they won't be anyone you want to meet.

She... didn't feel any pain. When it happened... she wants you to know that she was already gone before it could hurt.

[spohkh]

[Spock was silent as he considered George's words...]

I...


[The Vulcan didn't know what to say. His mother was apparently well in this space where the spirit lingers... and she had a friend. But not just any friend...
...Jim's father. Spock finds that he is rather... relieved that she isn't alone.
The Vulcan nods...]

I thank thee. You have my promise to do everything in my power to take care of your son. He is... precious to me as I am certain you are aware.
However... I have one query...
I have witnessed many people lose their spouses... why did Winona react so severely?

[Indeed... Vulcans took losing their bonded spouse better than Winona Kirk.]

[only1highlander]

Ah...

_{[He averted his eyes a bit, sighing.]}

You got me there, Spock... it's as much a surprise to you as it is to me... I can't say it's been easy watching her fall apart. Believe me, it's been my personal hell sometimes. I... wish I could tell you, son. I wish I knew. I never understood how our boys weren't more important to her and I've watched my family crumble for twenty six years wondering the same thing. Why?

I don't know that answering that question is going to help. I just have to find it in me to forgive her somehow... I know Jim would in a heartbeat if she gave him even a suggestion that she might be better. He wants so badly to have a family...

You know that now about him, Spock... you're one of the few people in his life who's shown him love that wasn't conditional.

[spohkh]

[Spock hesitates.... but only for a moment.]

I grieve with thee.

[Indeed, the woman he had seen was not a mother. And it was quite possible that she would never be a mother, no matter how much Jim wanted her to.]