done_in_3 | K/S Hospital Scene bc Into Darkness was so K/S TASTIC

It was so sudden. He woke up with a flash, bright lights, soft sounds, a bed, he was alive?? But he'd died in the chamber...in engineering. Spock and he had exchanged that vulcan hand-thing whatever the hell it was. He'd died, he was dead. Was this heaven? Holy....

No. Bones was here nagging at him.

"Oh don't be so melodramatic, you were barely dead. You've been out cold for two weeks."

He was so...taken aback. What had happened? He just remembered being in the locked chamber watching Spock shed tears, glimmering tears of anguish as he slowly died of radiation poisoning... his heart lurched at the memory. He didn't know the vulcan was even capable...

And then Spock was in the room, approaching him. Suddenly... everything else was forgotten. Hell even Bones was gone in his mind, though he could hear the doctor put in a "You know Uhura and I had something to do with it too."

"....Thanks, Spock... for saving my life..."

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spohkh

[Spock closed his eyes...

That could have been handled better. Well, it's not as if Doctor McCoy and Spock were friends, but this certainly didn't help the situation.
No matter, he would defend Winona.

...it was his fault after all.]

If you have a logical argument why Missus Kirk did not have a right to know that he son had died, please inform me.
[Spock tried his best not to look vulnerable... He would rather avoid telling Leonard that he was compromised and completely forgot that she didn't know.]

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done_in_3

_{[Well Spock might be a bit surprised at how easily Leonard caved. He had sympathy for both sides of this, actually. And he saw how vulnerable you were, Spock. Honestly he's just as vulnerable as you right now. His best friend came in here half dead not ten days after actually dying. His greatest achievement, to cure death, was something he was still backed against the wall about. Starfleet wanted everything under wraps and his ability to even use the thing was restricted to the point of uselessness. It was contraband that he even brought it here.

But he agrees that Winona should have been told. Honest.]}

I... look I don't want to fight you right now. We're not enemies. Maybe we're not friends but we have a common goal.

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spohkh

[Spock nods...
...Indeed, they certainly did have the same goal in mind.]

Of course... thank you Doctor McCoy.
[The Vulcan hesitated for a moment...]

When... when can we see him?

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done_in_3

_{[They maybe could be friends through this madness. They were both out to protect Jim and they both knew that that included protecting him from himself.]}

About an hour. I'm dosing him little by little with the serum from Khan's blood. The hospital staff can't know about it. It'd been easier if I could have brought him to San Fransisco but I wouldn't dare risk moving him in his state.

The hell was he doing?

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spohkh

[Spock finds himself nodding again...
he wants to be close to Jim because the bond... there was something about the bond that was craving closeness.

Oh...McCoy would want to know what happened, right?]

The direct cause was a horse that kicked him.

[Spock gave Leonard a look which implied that he was directly involved... and possibly indirectly at fault. That was usually the way of it, right?]

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done_in_3

_{[Jim's end of the bond tugged rather weakly at Spock's, but with no small amount of desire. He was hurting in so may ways, he just wanted to be close to Spock where at least his soul wouldn't hurt.]}

Hm? I see. Did it get afraid? Jim said he was pretty good with horses. Now normally I wouldn't take a man for his word so easily but I've seen Jim casually underestimate himself to someone and then demonstrate himself to an almost lethal level. So when he said he was good with animals I assume he's a horse whisperer... why are you looking at me like that?

I know you didn't push him into the horse's hoof or something.

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spohkh

You are not incorrect about your assumptions regarding Jim's ability to handle animals.

We...were having an argument I started. The horse becoming 'scared' was a result of that argument.

[In Spock's mind, he may as well had pushed Jim. But, he was Vulcan, it was illogical to dwell on what could not be changed.]

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done_in_3

_{[Trouble in paradise? Bones wouldn't dare rub it in right now. This was a tragic and violent ending to whatever they were fighting about but... were they physically fighting? Maybe yelling but would a horse really get that upset by volume alone? Bones did need to know that but if that was the case then he'd have to talk to Jim about it later. If Spock was hitting him then he'd never admit it, and Jim might be honest if some abuse was going on...]}

Right.

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spohkh

[Oh McCoy... just wait until you find out what really happened.

Spock regarded Leonard for a moment... not knowing if he truly understood, but then again that didn't really matter. As long as Winona knew, he was content.
The Vulcan relaxed in his seat and looked to Winona... they had to play the waiting game now.]

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done_in_3

_{[He'll get the whole story later when Jim passionately defends Spock. But for now he is simply objective... though slightly suspicious. Winona returns to Spock's side to wait while McCoy heads back to Jim.]}

Well Spock it's fairly obvious and perhaps bordering on obtuse but... I think it needs to be said. I think you and Jim should stay with me for the time being. Jim's going to be recovering for at least a month while his bones harden back up. And this 'bond' you two talked about is bound to have him loopy as well. I think it will be easier on everyone if you stayed put.

It'll help me help you easier anyway.

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spohkh

[Spock regards Winona for a long moment...
...She is still willing to work with him?

Fascinating.

The Vulcan lets out a breath of air he didn't know he was holding.]

Yes, I believe that would be wise. I thank thee for your generous offer.

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_{[She nods. Well that's settled and out of the way. She's stressed but she's handling things calmly.]}

Don't worry about it, it's as much a good for me as it is for you two. I could use the company... especially that of my son. And you.

... How are you by the way? You need to talk about it?

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spohkh

[Spock thinks for a moment... ]

Missus Kirk... I am uncertain of how I should speak of it. And by human standards it is unfair to you. From your perspective I have only entered into a relationship with Jim a few days ago. And you... you almost lost a son...

I should be asking you if you wish to speak of your emotions at this time.

[Spock was trying to dodge the bullet in a very classy way.]

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done_in_3

_{[She just chuckled softly. He knew a boy trying to skirt accountability when she saw it. Even if he did it in a very tactful way.]}

Jim isn't going to be in any state to help you when you get alone time with him. You have to rely on someone and I have an established system with you as well as understand the situation at hand.

So tell me...how are you feeling? You almost lost a lover.

Edited Date: 2013-08-05 07:55 pm (UTC)

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spohkh

[Spock makes a small, non-committal noise as he looks away... but quirks an eye at the word 'lover'...

Interesting word.... and he supposes it's accurate.
Spock stands and starts to pace the small room.]

I feel.... torn. Part of me wants to do better, to be better for Jim so that he does not feel that he has to go out and hurt himself. The other part of me believes that I am not enough.... not good enough... not human enough for Jim. My very presence in his life has put him in danger.
If I stay, I hurt him... if I leave I will hurt him.

I do not know what to do.

[Spock is angry at himself. He does not like how emotional he is being, how utterly un-Vulcan like he is. He is better than this... he has more control than this.

...but no matter what... if it involves Jim, Spock has no control. And that's what scares him the most.]

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done_in_3

...that sounds like a very reasonable feeling.

But understand that Jim's habits can't be broken overnight. He's practiced this coping mechanism and it's going to take more than one attempt from you to get him out of it.

Staying with him, Spock, is perhaps the only safe thing he's had happen to him in his life. Try to understand where he comes from... and I don't entirely understand it myself. But Jim has lived his life suffering brutality alone, and as a result he'd picked up a lot of bad habits. He needs you and me to show him alternatives and he needs to come to those on his own.

...It didn't matter what you did today to stop him, Jim would have ended up hurting himself somehow. That's the way my son is.

...

...but don't leave him. If you have any desire to help him, Spock I can promise you that leaving him will only ensure he stays this way forever.

You and I have our differences but Jim... he loves you. That's a big risk for him to take, Spock. You do realize that every person he's ever loved has left him? Don't hurt him like that. I don't know if he could take one more...

Edited Date: 2013-08-05 08:12 pm (UTC)

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spohkh

[Spock stops pacing as he listens to Winona....

...nodding he sits down beside her once more.]
Of course. You are right.

Regardless, I do not think it would be possible for me to leave him. It would severely damage us both.
[And it was in that truth that he hoped he did not make Jim feel trapped.
Well... time would tell, and Spock wasn't going anywhere.
Oh...

... Spock remembered something.]

Missus Kirk... that horse... he managed to escape. Will he be alright?

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done_in_3

I'm glad to hear that.

_{[She hoped this marriage would help Jim. He had exhausted everything she had in Iowa and herself to help him.]}

Do you mean that to tear the bond apart would hurt Jim?

I couldn't care less about the horse right now to be honest. The whole property is fenced in, he won't get away. There's plenty of grazing fields he can use. He'll calm down and later I'll find him. He's wild. He'll manage. Hell it's probably a nice break for him.

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spohkh

It would indeed hurt Jim. It would be akin to tearing off a limb... only it is in your mind.
It is why Vulcan marriages are only dealt with seriously, and on a permanent basis. It is possible for two individuals to break the bond if they are not compatible.... because the bond itself is not strong.
However, the stronger it is, the more painful it is when the bond is damaged in any way.

To break it entirely....

....Jim is human, he would survive it.

[Spock... would not. If anything, he was amazed his father survived Amanda's death. However, they were not T'hy'la... that changed things.]

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done_in_3

... But you wouldn't?

_{[She clearly had no idea Spock was risking that much to be with her son. That changed things a bit...]}

And Jim knows this?

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spohkh

Missus Kirk... the only way I would willingly break the bond if it is what Jim wanted.
As for how much Jim knows... he knows enough. I do not wish him to feel trapped.

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done_in_3

Alright... I appreciate your concern for Jim's perspective.

But there's also such thing as leaving too much out, Spock. Don't you think he should know that?

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spohkh

Perhaps... but then, Jim never did like ultimatums.

[Spock was silent for a moment.
Should he really tell Jim the full consequences of the bond? If anything, to inform him now would only imply that he should have told him earlier.

But then, nothing was easy between them.]

When Jim is well... I will inform him.

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done_in_3

It's up to you ultimately. Though while he doesn't feel trapped right now technically he is.

Whatever works for your partnership. I understand not wanting him to feel trapped. But I think that should have come up before you bonded. It's no matter, it's all in the past now....

I think we would both do well to become better versed in the victims of abuse. I don't know about you but I'm getting plenty of books on it to start with.

Edited Date: 2013-08-05 10:40 pm (UTC)

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spohkh

Indeed... that is a wise decision.

[Research articles, books.... anything he could get his hands on he would. But for now, all they had was each other...

...a rather interesting situation for sure though far from humourous.

Since meeting Jim, he has learned the painful truth about himself... He was a selfish creature. He wanted Jim... He wanted Jim to be safe, even if it meant keeping him suffocatingly close. But he knew he couldn't do that. Things were going to inevitably change now that they were bonded...

...and they were going to have to have talk soon.
For now... they had to wait.]

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