K/S Hospital Scene bc Into Darkness was so K/S TASTIC

[done_in_3]

It was so sudden. He woke up with a flash, bright lights, soft sounds, a bed, he was alive?? But he'd died in the chamber...in engineering. Spock and he had exchanged that vulcan hand-thing whatever the hell it was. He'd died, he was dead. Was this heaven? Holy....

No. Bones was here nagging at him.

"Oh don't be so melodramatic, you were barely dead. You've been out cold for two weeks."

He was so...taken aback. What had happened? He just remembered being in the locked chamber watching Spock shed tears, glimmering tears of anguish as he slowly died of radiation poisoning... his heart lurched at the memory. He didn't know the vulcan was even capable...

And then Spock was in the room, approaching him. Suddenly... everything else was forgotten. Hell even Bones was gone in his mind, though he could hear the doctor put in a "You know Uhura and I had something to do with it too."

"....Thanks, Spock... for saving my life..."
 

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[spohkh]

[Spock takes the whisk, and beats the eggs. He's sure that he could get used to this.
Maybe even become a decent cook?]

I can only hope that it will be edible.

[Spock's amusement flows through the bond...

When he has finished with eggs, he looks at Winona as if to ask 'what now?']

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I'm sure it'll be fine.

<sub>[His mom is there to ensure quality control.

Winona pointed to the skillet.]</sub>

Pour the eggs in here. All of them.

[spohkh]

[Spock did as instructed, and poured the eggs into the pan... watching as the heat started to rise from the slowly cooking eggs.

His mind thoroughly enjoyed interacting with Jim's... and the bond was practically purring like a cat as it curled around Jim's consciousness.

Now what Missus Kirk?]

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<sub>[Jim feels much better today, the bond didn't hurt and in fact it felt pretty good getting spoiled by Spock. He's a much more pleasant person today.

Meanwhile Winona was walking Spock through the rest. Just leave it, occassionally fold the eggs over... leave it. Fold again. Then take it off the heat and add cheese. She dishes up some for Spock and Jim.]</sub>

Here. That ought to do the trick. You did alright this time. Not bad for a first attempt.

[spohkh]

[Spock looks...pleased. But not so much that you'd notice it unless you were looking.
The Vulcan gives his thanks and takes the offered food. Balancing his load, he takes the food upstairs and into Jim's room.]

I believe the phrase is.... 'food is served.'

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_{[Jim has managed to sort of sit up, he's propped against his headboard, pillows at his back.]}

Did you learn a lot?

You know I can teach you too if you want... _{[He eyed the food hungrily.]} Bring that over here... you ever had one of these?

[spohkh]

[Spock sits on the bed next to Jim, setting the tray on Jim's knees.]

I have not.

[The Vulcan tucks into his own food.... mischievously looking at Jim.]
Perhaps you would like for me to feed you?

[done_in_3]

Hm? <sub>[He already has a bite of it in his mouth. He looks a bit wide eyed at Spock but... well he kind of... pauses.

He can't have a lover feed him. Not after Kodos... but... well... he can try. If Spock wants that. Just don't get offended if he gags. Okay?]</sub>

If you want...

[spohkh]

[Spock regarded Jim for a moment...

Though he had meant it as kind of a joke, or even a romantic gesture....There was obviously something he had missed, but he wasn't going to press the issue. But there was one thing that was clear... Jim did not want to be fed.

Spock hummed as he ate another bite of food.]

I retract my offer. Perhaps that form of action is not for us.
Though I am certain there is something else that we can spend our time doing after we finish our food.

[Double Entendre? yup.]

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_{[He's sorry. He knows he has hangups about stupid things that shouldn't bother him. He wishes he could let you explore ever romantic gesture... maybe when you two are bonded and you've seen that particular memory... you'll understand. But just thinking about it, makes Jim's mind darken a little. Just a hint of his darkness returns, he nods to Spock as he eats. Sure, he'll fuck you. Whatever you want... Only he knows this is getting derailed, he knows he's getting sucked into the darkness. He doesn't know how to get back out. He doesn't want this to evolve into the days-long darkness that it usually does. It's only started now, he can get out if he tried. God how does he distract himself? No, stop talking about sex Spock.]}

Yeah? That's... great. Sounds good.

[spohkh]

[Spock puts down his fork... and places his plate on the bedside table.
Somehow, he's lost Jim. How? He doesn't quite know, but he does know that's it's related to whatever has caused that darkness in Jim.
Now is definitely not the time to talk about sex.

The Vulcan moves down the bed... propping his back on the wall as he puts Jim's feet in his lap.
Lifting his hands, he starts to methodically massage Jim's feet....humming quietly.

In the bond he sends an image of them on the Enterprise... their home. It was there that everyone respected and loved Jim for who he was...

...and he hoped that someday they could defeat that darkness together.]

[done_in_3]

<sub>[Well done, Spock. Jim is surprised that he responded so quickly, and how. But in a few minutes he is calm again, focusing on other things. He can finish his food, he can think about Spock, he can be free from the paralyzing despair and self-blame.

It isn't immediately evident but Spock has given Jim one of the most significant gifts of his life: a way to free himself from his darkness. Even if just for a little while. His life since Tarsus was chaos. The darkness came at random and left only when he drank or fucked it away. Sometimes not even then. He never had a way to make it stop, he was never in control of it.

This is the beginning of his healing, Spock.]</sub>

[spohkh]

[Spock continues to just be there... giving no indication of stopping or leaving. He is comfortable with Jim.
He is most at himself with Jim, and he doesn't see that changing anytime in the future.

The Vulcan continues to hum and massage Jim's feet as he finishes his meal.... the bond continues to portray significant moments of their career.... and general hopes for the future.

And no matter what happened... he would stay with Jim. Children? Grandchildren? Retiring? Bring it on. Life was an adventure when you had the person you loved next to you.]

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<sub>[He can't put to words how grateful he is to have Spock with him. No one has ever... helped him with this. No one has ever been someone he wants to take on the world with but Spock. He agrees with every sentiment. His life can't be an adventure without Spock at his side.

When he finishes he hands Spock his plate and offers to return the sweet favor. Jim really is a kind hearted soul despite what people say about him.]</sub>

[spohkh]

[Spock gives Jim a small smile... and shifts around so that Jim can have his foot.
The Vulcan eats... Their silence is comfortable and warm as they both seem to enjoy the company in each other's minds.]

[done_in_3]

[He enjoyed having comfortable silence and love. He rubbed all the tight spots out of Spock's feet, finding soothing relief in the simple act of tending to his mate. When he was done he opened his mind to project.

he's thinking maybe he's ready to talk a little about his history with Kodos. And where his hangups come from. ]

[spohkh]

[Spock finishes his food.... but then looks sharply at Jim. He opts to talk out loud.]

Are you certain Jim? I do not wish to 'rush' you by any means.

[done_in_3]

You can't rush me when you didn't ask.

But if you're going to have all my memories soon it seems only fair to give you some kind of heads up as to what's in there...

... and I think I'm ready to start talking about it. To you. It might... help me.

_{[If that's not too much for you to handle. He understands if it is, this isn't exactly easy or pleasant conversation and he doesn't know how he'll respond by trying... but he wants to try.]}

[spohkh]

[For you Jim, Spock will endure anything.]

[Spock shifts again so that he has once more placed Jim's legs over his lap...]

I... am here for you Ashaya. Whenever you are ready.

[The Vulcan waits... curious and apprehensive.]

[done_in_3]

<sub>[He nods, comforted already. He knows he can trust Spock and it's odd for him to think of that this early in a relationship but he just knew it. Spock didn't judge him and he wasn't trying to shove quick solutions down his throat as a means to silence him.

He knows this is going to be uncomfortable for them both but he's grateful to Spock for trying even if it fails.]</sub>

There was this barn that I hid in when Kodos made the announcement and people started dying... the animals in it had been killed for meat. I was afraid they'd find me and kill me too because I didn't have parents with me on Tarsus.

He found me, and I didn't know who he was then, I thought he was just a generous stranger, probably just as scared as I was. He gave me some of his food and we just talked. He came back for days and I started to like him. He seemed so calm in spite of all the murder happening left and right. The district I was in was getting a sweep at the time, all the people he put on the death list were getting executed. I thought he was just a cool man, he was too tough to be outwardly bothered, you know?

_{[Jim chuckled]} It sounds so stupid now...

He asked me if I was alone or if my parents had been killed. And my stupid ass, I just told him I didn't have anyone planet-side. He liked me after that. I never even considered I was just prey to him. At first he just wanted to look at me. And that was weird but I thought it was a small price to pay since he was feeding me, then he wanted me to touch him. It was weirder, but still a small price to pay. I started thinking about what I wouldn't do for food then. Or just another human being...

[spohkh]

[Spock tries to picture it... to understand....
He sees Jim as a small boy, scared and alone. A wave of possessiveness streaks through the Vulcan, wanting nothing more than to protect that boy.

Spock rubs Jim's legs softly, encouraging him to continue. What could he say to that? Jim's lived through something so traumatic and terrifying... that no mere words of solace could ever give Jim comfort.

However, the one thing Spock could give him is the sense that he is not alone. Spock... well... he would stay. And he was willing to spend the rest of his life proving to Jim that he would not go anywhere.]

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_{[He appreciates that Spock just listens. He took a breath, this wasn't as bad as he thought it would be.]}

It didn't start with any big show. He didn't even say anything when he... the first time he... _{[he didn't want to say the word, he doesn't like it. He just omits it and assumed Spock understands. It's in their bond anyway, what he is thinking.]}

I remember his hands were like ice. I didn't say anything, I didn't really understand what was happening. I... I'd tried so hard then to tell him what I thought he wanted to hear so he'd keep coming back. It's kind of a blur now. I don't remember it necessarily being humiliating the first time, only that it's the worst pain I've ever been in. I didn't cry but there were tears in my eyes, it hurt so bad you know? I remember... wanting to curl up and hide... I wanted to cry like a little kid. He grabbed my leg and pulled me down when I tried to move away. He said something like 'virgins have to do it twice'.

_{[Jim's mind is trembling a bit. It's starting to race.]}

He said he was doing me a favor. That I was watching people die so I was a man now, and he was showing me the parts I needed to know. I won't say I believed him or not, I didn't really understand. He left me a ton of food after that, so I thought maybe it wasn't so bad after all.

[spohkh]

[Spock's hands stopped stroking as he took in Jim's words... he had to remind himself to continue breathing.

Gently, he wrapped his conscious around Jim's... giving it warmth and strength as Jim's mind fell into panic.
Slowly, the Vulcan began to move again.... his hands caressing Jim's legs in long, gentle strokes. Almost as if to remind Jim that there was indeed such thing as a gentle touch in this universe...

Still... the Vulcan remained silent. He wanted to make sure that Jim got it all out before he interrupted.]

[done_in_3]

Ah... I dunno the rest...

_{[He sighed, feeling a bit uncomfortable. But Spock started petting him again and as silly as that was it helped. He only worried that he'd be scarring Spock. If they weren't going to bond and be forced to swap memories he wouldn't be telling him this. For Spock's sake.]}

I found out who he was and confronted him about it. I recognized his voice after a while, someone had his sound byte about executing half the population playing and I knew his voice immediately. He made it sound like he was he victim somehow in making that choice... that was the first time he ever started using my lifeline against me. Make me verbally agree to what he wanted to do to me before he'd let me eat...

_{[He covered his face with both hands then, rubbing his forehead then dropping them back to his side with a sigh.]}

I remember saying how much my body hurt, I couldn't take it again. He said I could use my mouth and stupid me, I thought that wouldn't hurt quite so bad. That it would be easier to endure. I guess in a way it was... but there was nothing I could do to get around being too small. No matter what he did to me it always hurt. God that time I couldn't breath, he just.... he knocked the wind out of me, I couldn't catch my breath at all. I thought I was going to pass out. Hell maybe I did... I remember laying on the ground when he left just trying to see straight and wanting to throw up.

[spohkh]

[Spock had to refrain from doing anything that would scare Jim, or stop him from talking. But knowing...knowing that that animal was still alive out there in the universe really really made Spock mad. He couldn't wait to get his hands around his neck, and watch the life leave his eyes.
Spock focused on Jim once more.... feeling the anguish through the bond.
Spock impressed that Jim need not worry about him... and to know that no matter what.... no matter what either of them has faced, they have each other. And nothing would make Spock not want to bond with Jim. Nothing.

Spock continued to stroke Jim's legs.... but he did at one point snake his hand up to Jim's, and lightly caress his fingers... just another added touch of love. He couldn't believe that Jim lived through this.... and yet, it was all so terribly and painfully real. It was a little daunting to know that he would see it all first hand when they bond in the next stage. He thought Jim to be very brave to tell him about this know... it took a lot of courage to speak about these types of horrors.]